thewife@20wks

thewife is now close to 20weeks which is about 5months.
Her belly is showing already

We had to switch doctors as her gynae recommended we switch to the one at the other hospital where she sees the doc for her ITP.
The new doc charges a helluva lot more $$$$.
The baby is doing fine and the new doc is being more cautious as thewife has ITP and her placenta is low.
So he said “no intercourse”…………………………………………………………………………………………………………………
Well, what can I say , right?.... (anyway I’m still “bringing it on” for thesife though… )
I’m reading, watching movies and downloading stuff…

we both agree that we did not spend enough time talking to no2inthebelly as we did with theson.
we need to improve on that.

Music to my ears

The heartbeat of my baby in thewife’s stomach.

Nearly had a heart attack when thewife was spotting again on Tuesday. Rushed to the hospital for a emergency checkout.Glad when I saw the little baby's heart beating. Foetus at 7weeks.
doc said was ok but keep monitoring. thewife has low blood pressure as well. Cost $600 but I’m ok.. as long as thewife and thenewkid is okay

dont be a hero..

Tried to eat oats with soy sauce and sausages last night. didnt work for me. i nearly puked but theson seemed to love it. I've eaten oats with milk and sugar all my life so now my body seems to reject it if i have it with anything salty.

Theson woke up at 4am today asking to go to school. School has been closed for a week due to HFM so it looks like he misses school. Funny.

Thewife not feeling so good but was still on night shift this week. she had insomnia after the 1st night so she had to come back home 1/2 way thru her 2nd night. cravings are starting.

A pair of swallows have made a home on the piping of the aircon in the 2nd room.

Theson is a chip of the old block.. Like me he can also survive on mash taters and spaghetti..
but he also still needs rice as seen last week when he requested to go to thebabysitters place to eat rice and soup. this after only 2 days of non-rice diet over the weekend. :-)

missed her period.. and that a good thing...

thewife is pregnant again :-)
5weeks old
Confirmed by double lines on the home test kit
Confirmed by obgyn 2 days ago as well

How do I feel? Scared shitless..
I know I shud be ready but I’m not sure if I am.
So many things will change again.
So many thing un-learnt that need to be re-learnt..

Worry abt thewife, abt the baby, abt theson, abt myself.

Must stock up on much needed “sleep”

home is where the heart is??

it has always been thewife's dream to own a landed property and so last week we went hunting in the mainland. She wants a big house, with a backyard, patio and big kitchen with island. with emphasis on the kitchen.
I just want a >1500 sqft house with 4 rooms to live in, single or double storey.
:-)

We saw a 3-storey corner lot bungalow, off the NS highway, which was around 25mins away, and it really looked awesome. very nicely renovated concept house with jacuzzi, TV room, slightly small kitchen and big garden with pond and fountain but...
But its just too far and too costly.
these days the new housing projects require you to pay the cost for the land and the cost of building the house itself........ jeeez...
am pretty sure thewife would move into the place in a heartbeat, if it was closer and cost less.

There was also another single storey bungalow project that is coming up that was close to 2000sqft with 4 rooms and it was also tucked quite far away in a secluded village area with only 1 small connecting road.

so we are still looking and saving money til that day comes when we find that "perfect" house.

thewife blog

thewife started a blog a few weeks back.
it is interesting to see her insights on things.

raging..

theson is stil slightly feverish... and he's cranky..
he refuses to eat solids and finishes only 3/4 of his milk all the time.
when he doesnt eat/drink, thewife get stressed and usually i'm caught in the "line of fire"
every single time since theson has been born.. because theson is quite stuborn as well..

normally, she''ll just yell at me or worse, she'll not talk to me..
well, she apologises to me later every single time though, or i will apologise if i created the mess..
actually, sometimes, she'll be pissed at me for what i did and because i'm stubborn, i'll be also pissed at her for being pissed at me (normally if we have something on and the pissing match messes up some schedule or another for dinner, movies, birthdays...etc)
we are both quite stubborn but sooner or later someone will apologize, & most of the time too late actually :-)

whoever said marriage/parenthood is easy? well, nobody actually...
it takes work, lots of it, to make things run smoothly.

fuckin cruel

let me apologize first... i dont normally use curse words in my blog but recent events warrants some....

Sometimes life really is cruel…
life is truly unfair..
or is god cruel??
or am i just a bad blaspheming catholic...?

Thewife is no longer pregnant. :-(
She had an “empty pregnancy” basically the embryo didn’t form. :-(

thewife was spotting blood the last 2 weeks since our 1week holiday and last tuesday, it got heavier. she went to the hospital anf her regular gynae is at a conference so she had to go with the next available one at the hospital.
i should've followed her to the hospital.. i was in a lot of afternoon meetings.. i truly regret.
the doc's ultra sound showed a "round shaped" embryo-egg which is not nornal for 9weeks.
yea, 9 weeks..... :-(
i remember theson sorta looked like a kidney bean at 9weeks.. basically the egg never developed and she was not pregnant. she broke the news to me over the phone sitting in the hospital carpark, in tears.. i was alone in a conference room taking her call.
she said, " its not fair, why her? why would god do this?"
how do i feel? ever been punched in the stomach before? worse than that...
couldnt breathe.... fuck...!!!!!

sigh... we were so happy.... damm.....!!!
well thats life, isnt it??

the doc advised to do in the next day to remove the egg and clean the uterus.
i took leave and follwed her in on thursday. the replacement gynae is pretty good at putting people at ease. like him.
we were there at 830am and thewife has to be prepped for minor surgery with anasthesia, which was at 12pm. it was a daycare surgery and no need to be admitted.
i found a corner spot in the waiting room and sat there reading my clancy from 930am till 12pm. went in the prep room twice to talk to thewife. she seems ok. i was actually quite afraid and i'm sure she was too.
surgery was close to 20mins and she was out by 1pm.
all that time i was actually sitting there and praying while multiple worse case scenatio ran thru my sick mind. close to tears... :-(
i am not ready to lose thewife.
the surgery was a success and i talked to her a bit after she woke up. the doc said all ok and no need to worry.
sat my butt down on the chair for another 2.5 hours to wait while she recovered.

only got to see her again at 345pm. by this time she was fully awake and had her meal already, beverage and 2slices of bread.
i actually did not eat or drink yet since we woke up at 700am today. i didnt want to leave the waiting room in case the nurse called me or if thewife wanted to see me. did not want to take the chance. she's worth the wait. every minute of it.
we were out of the hospital by 530pm and headed to pick theson up.

we talked about the whole thing and why it had happened.
"who knows" i said. maybe god has his reasons...
we will try again..

she said that she's not that sad anymore but i dont really believe her..
you know why? coz i'm still sad as hell... :-)

today, i packed up her maternity clothes and going to put them back in storage. :-(
hoping to take them out again soon...

new hairdo

by the way, thewife's hair is now curly...very curly... and i actually like it.
(it cost 200 buckaroos, by the way..... mine is usually 7bucks at the old barber shop near my mums place)
anyway, it is supposed to be easier to maintain since she's pregnant now.

i'll be honest, i was a bit shocked at first but its quite nice.
thewife originally has curly/wavy hair and so far she has:-
-cut it shoulder length
-cut it boycut
-straightened it
-dyed red
-dyed blonde
and now its curly... and i like all of them by the way...!!!!!

it would seem the trend for women to always have a new haircut after a while.
straighten if curly, curl if straight... black to red to blonde to brown to black...
i dont really understand why and i wont even try to.
all i know is that if shes happy, i'm happy...
i will just love continue to love her the way she is and luckily so far no major drastic hairstyle change that i dont like.

speaking of hair,
the patch of hair that theson pulled out of his own head is growing back.. slowly but surely...
but i dont think it will be back to normal on his birthday which is just next month.... too bad..
maybe by christmas..
fro now, i'll just have to photograph him from his good side only..
:-)

6-8weeks??!!??

thewife is definitely pregnant again but shes feeling all those "uncomfortableness" that she should be feeling at 5months, now.
she should be 6-8weeks pregnant.
she got all the cravings, aches, pains, swollen legs.
i've also gone for a few food runs for her. nothing too difficult yet.
i'm always willing to please my pregnant wife.
i'm always more than willing to please my pregnant wife.

i'm going to be a father again...!!!!
excited and scared at the same time...
theson was not easy and i dont expect this time to be a walk in the park as well.
at least we are more experienced.... yea right...!!!

boy or girl? i donno....
i just want a healthy happy baby and a healthy happy wife with my healthy happy son.