drained...

PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY ‘POOPED”

WORKED TOO MUCH ALREADY TODAY..

REALLY….

heart attack central

 2 heart attacks today:

 

#1

At 2am, theson starts to wheeze very heavily. Medicate and nebulized him but 2 hours later he's the same. Can really hear his lungs struggling. Thewife was more freaked out than me. But I was equally concerned. Continue to monitor him and decision to go to hospital at 430am. Packed and off to hospital at 506am. Reached the emergency room at 520am. Thewife took him in while I was in the car with thebaby still sleeping. the doc checks him out and medicates him. seem the lady doc was cranky and thewife nearly "lost it" on the doc but i think she meant well. then again it was 5am and she could have just been really cranky.

 

#2

At 7pm, Thebaby was crawling fast, slipped and smacked his face on the floor. There was so much freaking blood for such a small cut on his upper lip. He cried for all of 2minutes and I think my heart stopped a few times when I saw the blood dripping from his mouth, luckily nothing happened to his 2 new front bottom teeth. lucky thewife was there as well else i would have "lost it".....

 

Live stress free?? Are you kidding me???

Its not easy….

…being a dad.

Sometimes you feel like you're doing a shitty job.. Today is one of those days where I know I screwed up big time and don't feel like i deserve to be a dad.  

Too hard on myself? I don't know…

what I do know is I need to do better.

Having patience with the boys is my biggest problem.

Sigh.....

its not easy

way way tired..

Thewife and me are really much more tired on Mondays. Why you ask? We actually use up much more energy on weekends than the sum total of energy use on all the weekdays taking care of the theson and thebaby. Theson sticks to thewife and thebaby stick to me. yaaawn….i think I need a massage. The whole left part of my body aches..

 

monday sucks

I wish I could shoot Monday in the knees and let it bleed to death slowly…….

 

nightwatch

I’ve actually been doing the nightly feeds for thebaby for the last few months. its pretty easy, feed once at 10pm and then again at 2/3am and final one at 6/7am or even skip the last feed sometimes if he cant get up. But I need to make sure I feed him as soon as he starts “calling”. If I’m a bit late or slow, he’ll refuse to drink and basically throw a tantrum. Pretty bad tempered and impatient little baby.

And, the reason I’m doing the a.m. feeds is because I sleep the latest and I can actually go back to sleep after I feed the little guy. If it was thewife, she cant go back to sleep and ..well…that’s just not god for everyone..

 

resume my resume

I need to start working on my resume again. Putting it off for quite a while already. Things don’t “feel” certain anymore here and lots of folks jumping ship. Maybe I should too. Go get me a “headhunter”. But 1^st, I need to have a resumè………

 

delayed telecast..

Guess what we watched over the weekend? Olympics womens gymnastics finals,  Yaya, I know, the Olympics have been over for more than a week already. We only finished the 1^st half. Cont next week.

 

mamma mia

Abba is really infectious and I’m really hyped about the “mamma mia” movie. Will be taking thewife to see it once it opens. I’ve been listening to abba since I was a kid. From cassette to cd to mp3. Don’t think I can get sick of their songs.

Its been a slow movie year. So far caught only hulk2, hellboy2, Batman2, kungfu panda. Missed out most of the summer movies, indy, ironman, wanted and clonewars. No loss and that’s what dvds are for…

 

blinded

New light fixtures in the office. Its now 300% brighter than before. I cant work like this. Need shades.

 

birthday#34

All objectives met for the day

Slept, ate, slept and ate somemore.

 

So what did I do on my Birthday?

thewife let me sleep in til 10. (tq) and she sent the kids to school/babysitter

Got my regular birthday Calls & sms

Went for lunch at Chicago ribs (very excellent ribs)

Back home in the afternoon for a nap

Bought Dominos banana kaya and cinnamon bread dessert as a substitute for a cake…

theson sang me the birthday song and strum on his guitar.

 

It was a very good birthday indeed

 

trojans

Hate those guys who create trojans and worms. My laptop got infected and I’ve not even sure how. IT guys called me and told me that my IP is launching thousands of “attacks” on other specific IP’s. Scanned with viruscan and spybot but still could not find the tricky bastards. IT finally gave me an updated dat file and that managed to catch 2 trojan suckers and effectively kill them. Good riddance..

 

cranky

Everybody’s cranky these days..

 

Reasons for crankiness:

 

theson, thebaby

-Not enough sleep or skip afternoon naps

-Did not get food on time or did not eat

-no reason whatsoever (esp for thebaby…)

 

Thewife,

-Not enough sleep

-Did not eat

-Kids cranky and screaming

-I’m too slow and I get the kids cranky

 

Me,,

-Did not eat

-Theson refuses to listen to me.

 

 

Just ranting a bit..

If I cant rant here, then where else, right?

 

34 soon

My birthday is coming up. The plan is to let me sleep in, while thewife to delivers the kids to school/babysitter and then we hv a ribs lunch across the bridge. Lets see how much of it gets accomplished.